Love

Its Easter tomorrow and I am feeling motivated to write again.

I feel its special because I want to share my feelings about God. I have always loved God in my own way. Never been a regular worshiper, but I have never questioned God's existence and power. And now as I am reading His word I am developing a new way of looking at Him. I am slowly experiencing His love towards me; and that makes me feel honored.

Its a good coincidence that I read about Jesus's death during the time of Easter and got a chance to process over it. Surely what he did is not any human's cup of tea. Though it was according to God's plan, of sending Jesus in human form and making him die for our sins, this is a tough decision to make. The way Jesus faced death was certainly a lot more painful than my thoughts, and until now, I never really cared about it much, to be honest. But yesterday, just for once I tried to put myself in same situation, and I felt suffocated. Of course I did ask myself, would I be able to go through all of that knowing the outcome of it? I am still in the sea of my thoughts..

God loves us, no doubt about it..but until yesterday it never hit me that hard. So the question for me is what can I do for Him? If I look back past couple months, I am not going to church, I am out of my fellow Christian friend's circle, I just had an argument with my brother, Daniel whom I love. And that makes me re think about my own self. I am blessed with wonderful family, a loving a caring mom, amazing friends, good education, good health , a nice understanding girlfriend. So God is blessing me with His love, its just that I am kinda overlooking it. But one good thing is He is encouraging me and keeping me in his word and indeed He is trying to communicate. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be[c] in you.[John14:17] All I need to do is respond. Respond, but in His way, the way Jesus would act. Its high time I learn that. I totally feel that Jesus lead his life to set an example for us. He was a perfect man, a perfect son. Thats what God is asking us to do- "Aim for perfection" and may be thats when we can reach our destination.

I am enjoying my journey and excited to know what He has in store for me. Its sad that Jesus had to die for us. but there is not greater example of love demonstrated by a perfect human towards imperfect humanity. I remember here what once pastor Bill said; "God knows us, coz He created us in his image. But He wants to experience us, for that all we need to do is open up our hearts. Allow Him and be blessed for the rest of your life." Coz He promises as said in Hebrews 13:5 “Never will I leave you;never will I forsake you.”