American Desi....???

Few days back..while I had an afternoon discussion with my future roomies about my India trip..I was asked to flaunt accent and go all that expected americanized desi way...though discussion was over and was meant for fun...I am still sketching myself in that yuccky figure...I would surely make fool of myself...Though it is also possible that people would still imagine some accent in my speaking but who cares...

So I am here thinking about my weird look...that rings alarm bells for me..never to go for anything like that..Gossh...I m saved...!!!! But I have seen many desis trying to use those fake accent and all those so called american words and they simply look idiots..their true efforts of using that accent in every sentence they speak doesn't impress others at all...At least for me I simple choose to ignore such creatures...No body can become a different person in two, three years...Accepted you are adjusted to a new environment you learn new words ...but the basic tone of speaking your language is a thing that can never ever go away from you...irrespective of how much hard you try...

I dont want to go into the objectionable topics like feeling proud of being Indian and being a patriotic coz I never had such feeling  ..But it doesn't mean I feel sorry being an Indian.. its just an inert feeling...but I dont think that coming to any other country nowadays is a big deal..So why have that fake feeling of greatness in first place...?

Why not be the person you are and present yourself the same way.....the benefit of this, I think is you will be respected for who you are and most importantly your loved ones will never feel of you being 'Changed'....here I think about all this...and I get the news about my friend being 'changed'...though I hardly believe on this news...this wasn't certainly expected from you..dear...I wish you "GET WELL SOON"...

Mind ..it..........

Its so ajeeeeeb feeling.....With the exciting events lined up...and the unfortunate things happening along with...I am confused what exactly my current mind state....yeah I am pretty happy and enthusiastic about my Swades Trip....but at the same time...with the previous history of broken  expectations I am kinda hiding it...

This always happens with me...If I am totally excited about a particular thing or meeting specific person..that never happens...Its bad I know..but over the time I forget it with a smile...But I have always loved this excitement..it has always made my day...forget the outcome..but those days in between...I love to see me smile..

So its decided...whatever be the case..I am looking forward meeting all of them..once again..with a new hope...with a new curiosity...with lottsaa new things...with my fingers crossed...finally 'mind it' is...will confuse me...for sure...

WHY ?????

I have always thought that people live two lives at a time...The first one is real..the truth..and the other one is imaginary...an illusion yet so loved....The real life is kinda harsh...coz u gotta deal with things that are not in your control, situations forced upon you irrespective of you want to be in them or not, meet, interact and stay with people whom you simple never want to be part of your lives. Of course this doesn't mean that its all bad bad..NO...it has its moments of joys, success and sorrows. You have you loved ones with you....which add sugar n spice to your routine...

The imaginary life on the other hand is the world created by you...the mind to be more precise..There is no entry for sorrows and downfalls here..All it contains are the scenes that your mind creates and your loved ones who enact in it with you...Like a goody goody movie scene..A smile automatically comes when you think of this world...like a cool sudden breeze in desert...you can see "The Real U" just by peeping in here...

So is everything going smooth ? The real fun starts when people whom you want to be in your created world refuse to accept you in the real one..And all those moments, all those incidences all those memories you wish to create with them suddenly seem to fade up...you so wanted to save them and make them happen in the real world...but all in vain...you dont get the proper response from the person you wish to be with...it hurts alott..really...why this happens..well its a mystery...

And my mind is bugged with since a few days...it revolves in a circle and asks me the same question how could that person do it...why...?

Lemme know if anybody has the answer...waiting for it....desperately....