I love movies !!!

I am a total movie freak...specially Bollywood...agreed there are loads of pathetic movies being made...agreed its nowhere compared to Hollywood...agreed it copies stories...Still I love it....coz I can easily relate to it...and if I relate to any character in any god damn movie...I love it...no matter how big flop it is...

I love this medium..it has the strong potential to convince people that there are good things...there are dreams which do come true...there are things...which can only happen in your dreams...It has the power to create a virtual world one can always imagine...always want to live in...so what if mummies have nothing else to do than doing pooja, welcoming with aarti and cooking gajar ka halwa....

What excites me rather attracts me to these movies is those characters they create...one I can always relate to is 'karan shergill' from 'Lakshya'. What a character Javed Akhtar has created...Though the lifestyle is different, professions are different...friends and family mannerisms are different...still that character so real...the way that character reacts...u can always feel...u too would have done it the same way...or similar incident might have had happened with you in the past....I don't know about others...but I do feel being the same person at times...of course no comparison to my favorite Duggu....(hats of to him for this role..)..but yeah..I do look up to being the same person...who is careless at times...total chilled out...loves his friends like anything...loves a girl...but is not aware of his potential...just coz he isn't focused enough...then his transition form that innocent guy to a responsible man...who still has the same feelings..in fact more strong...but now he knows how and when to express them...and now he knows what is Lakshya is....

Coming back to movies..All these characters that are portrayed...they do express the real person of actors, directors at times...I have this strong belief...every actor puts some of his/her real self into the character to extract it out from the paper...to make it real..convincing...live...and if audience can identify with them...its their success...a proper justice to the character....

I have always seen this medium as a way of my inspiration...of course in a positive way....This may sound funny or strange...but yeah its true..may be thats why I have always been referred to as 'total filmy'..and I love it...I have always loved this process of film making...so much of excitement and uncertainty...but yet once the product is out..u get amazed...coz what u have written on paper; is now in reality...one can play with all the emotions possible...can make you feel good, laugh,cry, think and predict at the same time...only 3 hours of time..and it takes you to an entirely different world...like a ride in an amusement park....

And today I m listening to this from a very dear friend..."bhot badal gaye ho tum".....and how I wished to continue...."Tum nai badali ho kya?".........

Time for a CHANGE....

He is in a calm state of mind...He is not so happy about things happening in his way..neither sad coz there are differences with closest friend...its a kind of inert feeling...like water in the river....calm and quiet...

May be this is the time for realization.. Realizing the fact that..all those people he thought are 'his' were never 'his'(except for a few)...realization that 'time' has the power of changing things, moods, behaviors and lives. Realization that there is something 'good' still alive in him...and he needs to find himself once again..Realization that there is a big difference between "hasna" and "muskurana"....

He is happy that he came to US...otherwise he would be in his own dream world...but..he still believes whatever happens is for good only... just few months old here..He is in love with the place..still a lot more to explore...In the beginning there had been all those feelings of homesickness, missing loved ones..(which he still does), mom, ghar ka khana.....missing those things he used to do back home..his bike...and a friend on the back seat..missed talking to somebody below the house...but now...he can safely look at them with a smiling face...He knows for sure...on the other side there is same condition...

But he has understood and accepted the effect of time...has felt the change in the voices of his loved ones, felt their 'busy'ness..felt the irritation in the voice of a dearest frend..for all these months he protected that same old guy from India..like anything...but now he too feels the need for a change..His stack of mind is full with thoughts...Thoughts that have been stucked for soo long..He knows for sure that unless he flushes out all these thoughts...there is no chance for fresh ones...He is eager to accept new feelings, new people, new concepts, new challenges, new changes...everything new...He has a strong desire ...to succeed..to be happy...to smile...to fly like an eagle..to swim like dolphins...Coz this is the right time...the time for a CHANGE.......

Today's reason for sadness

"Hi you have reached the voicemail of Sandeep Thakur. But if you could leave your name and number then I can get back to you as soon as possible. Thank you."

And it will be for...I dont know how long...

making of Me !!!

I have always felt life as an open book...where ppl have written beautiful chapters..life till now has been a wonderful journey and why not..its been influenced by so many ppl...so my first ever attempt to thank all of them...is this blog..coz i couldn't think of any better topic than to write about my favorite ppl.

of course they are not different if you compare it with anybody Else's ..but moreover this is for them. Whatever good i have in me..is all coz of them...it is always said that you value a person if they go far away...may be i have realised it...

Mamma : she is a perfect example of will power...I owe my life to her. She is sweet, hyper, lovely, beautiful and sexy..yeah I do call her that.

Deda : he is my friend and a partner of all my secrets..may be coz of that..i never felt that father-son relationship...coz we always bonded like friends..for me he is still there watching me from that sky..smiling at me for my stupidity and saying "Murkha Mula". You havent gone far from me dad...but yeah I do miss all my pranks on you... I love you...

Supriya my sister : Have been observing her since childhood as we grew up together..She is clever, calm, headstrong,affable,enthu kinda person. have lottsa memories and pranks with her..and now as she is getting married..i am gonna miss all that fun...

Sonya, Sandeep, vishu and Amit: they are V5 people..my true and best frends...I know for sure i can go back to them anytime. They will support me for my blunders. have been with me through all times. they have tought me many things..fun, studies, reliability, straightforwardness and many more things..I'll never forget you guys..where ever I'll go...U have been the the wonderful phase of my life..all those moments are just awsome...

Sonya..I knw the spelling mistake..but thats the way I call her..knows me inside out..my feelings, my thoguhts...my dreams..my confusion..my frustration...I dont care about the solution but I feel better if I just speak to her..she is practical, strong, beautiful, cute, caring and dangerous. She has a solid convincing power..

Pooja...I respect her efforts for changing herself for me...she hates it at times..but still she is doing it..and she is very successful...A cute girl whom I got introduced during engineering...though we were in same class in school...

Sandeep Thakur...I call him M.A.D...We have been friends since more than two years now..and from an online friend he is more of an elder brother to me...I have learnt a lot of things from him..and still learning..A very patient guy..who dared to tolerate me... simply love it..when calls me "Sheru"..."kanjar".."vehla insaan".. look upto him in many things...The strange part is that..in spite of not meeting at all in life..I trust him more than myself..coz I knw he wont give wrong advise to me....I love you brother...and wish you all the success and happiness...

well these ppl form the major part of me...and have always made my life more richer,better and enjoyable..there is no distance too great for love and time is not strong enough to fade away those memories....love you all...