Hmmmm....I sense it..its been with me for a while now...and I can feel its taking its toll on me...its this silence...I hate it...I hate it...I hate it.....
So much hard I try to run away from it..it finally grabs me....Every nuke n corner...every place its like there and waiting for me...like I have no other way but to surrender....and it just confuses me..I feel it says a lot by not speaking...its neither joy nor sorrow...just a plain..dead silence...I can experience it even with hundreds of people around...it follows me everywhere..in school, job, party..u name it..its there...
And now I feel it within me...I so wanna react to a situation but I choose not to..coz it prevents me...like somebody holding me back...its kinda helping me in some way so I can hold up my energy for something useful..but will it be always a right thing to do...I just sit around here n do nothing..try to analyze wat it wants to say...but I fail...I fail almost everytime and keep wondering about its mystery...One thing for sure..its not bringing any sadness or numbness...so no sign of danger..but then why the hell you wanna be with me dude...? find somebody else..coz I dunn need you...
But I guess I m learning to be at peace with it...learning to keep and hold it within me...like an extra mass within your body..which does nothing but resting there inside..but I know I wanna make use of it...so that I can put a limit to my non stop chattering and unnecessary arguments...I wanna use it to be able to speak to my conscience and to question my abilities and my actions...know my limits and to gain the power to go beyond them...to be able to accept that "Silence definitely speaks louder than words".I hope Mr. Silence you read this...
hey bhaiya gunjan here....sorry cud nt access orkut from university...itne dino baad i have read something that u have written...m sooooo happy...dekhte hai kab mai orkut par aungi....till den...take care luv....aur mai apko bhulne walo me se nai hu....so mujhe toh plz mat hi kaha karo ki apko bhul jau....luv u a lot...gud night for all ur lovely night and gud morning for all ur sweet morningsss....miss u....muaaaaaaaaahhh!!..!!!
ReplyDeleteyou need to speak speak and speak.. dont worry if you think you are not articulate enough. You will learn to express properly after some time, but you need to keep talking, talking and talking for that to happen. keeping quiet every time is not a solution. dont stop yourself. speak waht you think, do what you like.. in short majjani life! hahaha.
ReplyDeleteyour words and feelings are as real as they get. I think that we can listen and not hear, just as we can hear but not always be listening. I pray that you find peace beyond your wildest imagination! check this out: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pRi4VwcrYmA&feature=player_embedded#t=29
ReplyDeletevery well expressed Amu...really a nice one after long time...its true that somewhere sometime we need to surrender at Mr.silence...but dont let silence to grab u... ;)
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